“Didn’t we then say that a good man who loses his son, or anything else dear to him, will bear the misfortune more equably than other people? [...] Will he be more inclined to resist and fight against his grief when his fellows can see him, or when he is alone by himself? Much more inclined when others can see him. On the other hand, when he is alone he will not mind saying and doing things which he would be ashamed to let other people hear or see.”
Except I’m not doing Plato right now, I’m doing Ovid.
Thank God for daylight. And fellows.
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Finally, someone outside lj and the general fandom circle has nicely summed up the whole fanlib debate that’s been so thorougly discussed though every major fandom for the last few weeks. An interesting read if you’re in any fandom, as it there’s some good meta in there as well.
B and Suuz came round for lunch, which was a lovely distraction. I wasn’t expecting to see Suuz until the end of June, when she finishes church touring, but she’s back for a few days in BMS’ Birmingham headquarters. In true Susannah style she stayed for just two hours and still managed to leave her phone here, ahah, so they might have to come back tomorrow and retrieve it.
The rest of today - worked, walked into town with Chris to catch up and buy chocolate, worked a little more, created a recipe for chocolate mousse to finish up the double cream from the carrot cake filling. Feeling slightly more like myself now, but I still can’t shake a bit of - well, something.
29th may is the 10th anniversary of Jeff Buckley’s death.
Phew. I’ve just finished the revision I’d set myself for today. I got a little done at school but not as much as I’d needed, and then this evening I ended up playing poker with family and then going for a ramble with Chris (both physically and vocally, I would say). One thing leading to another, etc.
Helping with the music day was actually very fun. It was an orchestra made up of just me and 16 of the instrumental teachers, ahah, always unnerving, and we started off by speed-learning a few bits of music - just recogniseable stuff like William Tell and a Sound of Music medley and suchlike. Then we did ‘concerts’ of 40 mins-ish, starting with the full orchestra playing and then splitting it up into the different instruments and sections, getting each to show off a little as Mr M worked round explaining them all. And we ended with Rock Around the Clock, because it’s awesome.
So yeah, we did that… 4 times, for reception class & Y1, then Y2, then LGS Y7 and LHS Y7. Y2 also had some smaller-group instrument-trying sessions in the afternoon to get them to consider what they might like to start learning in November, and the instrumentalists were running those too but I got that time off. Being a Student with Approaching Exams and all.
I love the Fairfielders, they are so tiny and have such awesome thoughts. And people are always saying that working with children is rewarding, and I always assumed they were lying, but actually I can kindof see it now. Our concert programme evolved during the day as we saw what the kids responded to best, and by the end the oboe and bassoon reeds were having conversations with each other and the bassoon was taking his instrument apart to demonstrate how half of it could be used as a digeridoo, and yeah. I think we got them to have fun but I think they got us to as well.
So yes. good day. also, I’d really like my leavers hoodie now, because Chris has got his and it’s very cool-looking and made out of really nice snuggly stuff.
Tomorrow I DON’T HAVE A DRIVING LESSON IN THE MORNING. <333 Because I had one on Thursday instead. <3 So I can sleep in. <3 Goodnight world.
Have to be in school tomorrow. On the bus. Both ways. Ahahahah kill me now.
You expect things of me that I cannot give. And I still wish for things from you that will never happen. But life is full of disappointments, isn’t it. Sometimes you just have to stop and feel them.
Today’s been quite a nice day though. These things just come suddenly.
I hope I won’t be all alone tomorrow. Or maybe I do, and then I could do some work.